phase in time

This is a song I wrote in high school, so it's like, even more embarrassing than all the other embarrassing stuff I have here. You've been warned, here be emo shit.

how come i could never see
the world falling in
around, above, they eat away
under the skin

thin membrane of vacancy
holding me intact
under control of reality
wishing i could just
slip away and

let go just to see if i could
survive myself

the pangs of apprehension and acceptance of the truth
it rips through me like poison that was
willingly taken

why
have i lost the strength to fight for the
things i've always believed?
how
can i pick up the shattered dreams again and
mend them 'til i can see
the light the satisfaction of fufilling this one word
completing who i was to be

so much i do not know
where do i go?
your eyes they-
they catch the drops of sun and mystify like the moonrise
into a rainbow

i try to hide these eyes
but the world just sees right through me

and it might happen that one day i'll realise the fact
that maybe all this bloodshed was
all in vain

why
have i lost the strength to fight for the
things i've always believed?
how
can i pick up the shattered dreams again and
mend them till i can see
the light the satisfaction of fufilling this one word
completing who i was to be

you are the unreachable barrier
that i always seem to reach for
and you may never realise
you are the poison in my life
and yet you make me feel so right
you cause the treason in my mind

why
was all this just a phase in time?
and as the teardrops fall i watch
the scene pass
by
oh, why

why
have i lost the strength to fight for the
things i've always believed?
how
can i pick up the shattered dreams again and
mend them 'til i can see
the mended broken dreams
oh, why

was all this, just a phase in time
and as the teardrops fall i watch
the scene pass
by
oh, why