counting game

one, two, two and three
it's you and me
two bodies pulling closer by gravity

four, five
come alive
i'll show you all the ways that you can
create electricity

so it kills me that we will never be
together doomed from the age of eighteen

five, six, pick up sticks
we're just two kids
playing out a school yard love story

seven, eight
i speculate
of all the worlds and all the ways
we could be meant to be

you're beside me but we're oceans apart
need to silence my weary dumb heart

i'm counting all the time
to keep you off my mind
i'm tallying the ways
to better spend my days
instead of dreaming
'stead of looking for a reason to forget
instead of feeling grief
over something that had never happened

eight, nine
i'll cross the line
abandon all my pride to be the
one to make you smile

nine, ten
it's you again
avoiding you takes all my strength
i'll give up and hang for a while

you don't know the hold you have over me
i'd run away but i don't want to be free

i'm counting all the time
to keep you off my mind
i'm tallying the ways
to better spend my days
instead of dreaming
instead of finding ways that we could work it out
instead of making up
a love story you know nothing about

'cause you're not real
and i'm not real
we are fictional
a fantasy, a dream without a home
a tale to pass the time, make me forget the fact that i'm alone

you're not real
i'm not real
you don't love me if i said i did i probably don't
it's just a story, to make me forget the fact that i'm alone

i'm alone
i'm alone

one, two, two and three
falling
not as in love
but as a body from a balcony